You Love My Life

I received my second Reiki attunement last week and it is as if another veil has be lifted from my eyes!

A new awareness of life, happiness and serenity has been given to me, and as if it’s always been there.

I have used my reiki in so many ways in just the couples of days since the attunement…

I performed miracles on a woman’s hair that possibly didn’t have a second chance! She had been using store bought box colors for years, and I was able to lift the nasty bad color out of her hair, and replace it with a beautiful strawberry blonde that was even from root to end! (If there is anyone who understand the seriousness of box color and trying to “fix” it… you get the miracles that were performed that night!) I cut off all her broken, dry hair and made her sit with a serious deep condition on it for an hour before I blew it dry, and it came out even in color, healthy and strong, and soo full! Praise!

A wonderful, well paying, what I went to school for, flexible with my school schedule, job fell into my lap and is turning out more and more perfect as time progresses.

And I am spreading gratitude everywhere I go. I am consciously holding gratitude in my heart, blood, soul…etc. And passing it on to others to feel the happiness and love I feel in my life.

Thank you!

I love him. I have for a while now. I think I always have. It started in my heart, where it always does for me, and he has made my heart grow and expand with love in ways I never thought possible.

He and I are involved in this leadership group called Alchemist. At the end of each weekend we circle-up and a song is played to wrap up the whole weekend. This last weekend I saw things I didn’t know I would ever see. I felt compassion like I never have before for those who have gone through heart breaking experiences, things that no one should go through. A new compassion was felt for the whole world.

But the strongest feeling I felt was for him…

As the song “Amazing Grace” was being played, I was overcome with this warmth through my whole body, my heart started to throb, my eyes filled with tears and my through had a heartbeat of it’s own. I am so deeply in love with him, and my heart took it to a new level that night. It was as if my heart said, “I am risking everything. Forget the fear, forget the unknown, I am going to love him to the fullest!”

I didn’t think any of this in my head before my heart felt it. The only words of “Amazing Grace” I heard were “amazing grace”. They kept echoing in my head. Amazing Grace!

Amazing: causing great surprise or sudden wonder.

How amazing life is. How beautiful a relationship is when your soul and heart have found someone to sing with.

Grace: elegance or beauty, leasing or attractive quality, manifestation, the freely given

Grace is what my love IS. It comes naturally to me. I love openly and freely. And especially my love for him, I instantly loved him. Not to the depth that I do now, but I knew he was an amazing person once I met him. Grace is what we attract into our lives because we ARE grace.

He is amazing to me and full of such grace. He is so kind and gentle. He is so loving and compassionate. He is funny and witty. And he is healing. Healing himself and healing for others.

I am in a space in my life where I am finding how important it is to be completely true to me. In the past, I was a people pleaser. I said and did things so that I was accepted, and it became who I was. I don’t regret those days at all, I learned so much. And from that time, I have learned that that doesn’t work for me anymore. I honor those days, they were good to me. But the shield has been dropped, I am now vulnerable. And sometimes I am uncomfortable but I love it. I am in this life to live it to the fullest, to learn all that I came to learn, and I can only achieve what I want to if I am true to ME!

I am redefining my relationship with God.

I am rediscovering my relationship with myself. I am falling in love with myself. The role of “I’m not good enough or I don’t measure up” isn’t working for me anymore. I am important! I am amazing and wonderful!

I am the only one who knows what is best for me!

I only create healthy relationships in my life that serve me.

I am perfect exactly the way I am.

I am in complete gratitude for everything in my life.

I’ve been tagged by Sam!
All about me, from A to Z

A– Attached or Single? Attached…but I don’t love that word. Yes I have a sweetheart!

B– Best Friend? My mom, Ben, Andrea, Kate…

C– Cake or Pie? Yes, please

D– Day of Choice? Friday-Sunday!

E– Essential Item? Phone, camera, iPod, lipstick, earrings!!

F– Favorite Color? Red

G– Gummy Bears or Worms? I don’t love either….but I like gummie peaches!

H– Hometown? Spanish Fork…currently Orem…hopefully Southern Cali…

I– Indulgence(s) Ice cream, chocolate..

J– January or July? definitely July! I love the sun!!

K– Kids? Not for a while!

L– Life is incomplete without? Me! My family, Ben, friends… the daily adventures!

M– Marriage Date? not for a while! hehe don’t know!

N– Number of siblings? 3: Robbie, John and Kjarsti…but my family is huge elsewhere!

O– Oranges or Apples? oranges! can they be tangerines or clementine’s?

P– Phobias or fears? heights!

Q- Quotes? I find myself saying “You know what I mean?” a lot! and Ben and I are constantly quoting Jim Gaffigan or something from SNL.

R– Reason to Smile? Life is amazing and wonderful!! I am in total gratitude!

S– Season? Spring and summer!! I enjoy fall but not as much as those 2.

T– Tag 5 People?? Who ever reads this!
U– Unknown Fact? umm…I spit in the shower for fear of getting soap in my mouth…well now it’s turned into that I’m just conditioned to spit and not swallow. I am a slow reader. It takes me a while to get through books. I like to take my time.

V– Very Favorite Store? Forever 21, Target, MAC….Costco!

W– Worst Habit? (in the past!) I was a procrastinator. I was a speeder.

X– X-ray or ultrasound? Umm…I’ve only had an X-ray and it hurts if it’s on a broken bone and they have to MOVE it. But never had an ultrasound…I guess it’s just goo on your belly and that’s not painful…

Y– Your favorite food? Whatever I’m in the mood for. The halibut that was over a bed of spicy sweet potatoes I had in Park City last night was AMAZING!

Z– Zodiac? Pieces baby!!

we went to gay pride over the weekend and had a blast! I believe in equality! Everyone created equal. But I think it’s hilarious the drag queens! I am fascinated with people and culture. The gay community is totally a whole culture on it’s own! Check out some photos from the parade and later the festival of live entertainment and yummy food!

Drags in a buggy!

Large drag woman in the crowd!

The Kinsy Sicks

These 4 drags were a group that sang songs about drags, gay people, etc! It was hilarious!

Man in a woman body builder costume!

Imagine walking in those shoes the whole parade route! OUCH!

Oh and Obama was there to support the gays!

We are going to make this an annual event!!

See ya next year gay friends!

my mother tried to explain to me how to post photo on my blog, over msn chat. so we’ll see how I do! Of course it’s been months since I last posted! That’s what I do! So there is a lot to catch up on!

I planned a surprise birthday party for Ben last week. It was so much fun! So many of our loved ones came to celebrate his birth with us. The funny thing is, he had been staying late at work lately because there aren’t enough people to help out so he was being a good employee! But I asked him to PLEASE not stay late on Friday because we had a lot to get done! We were planning on going to the “gym” and THAT’S important!

He stayed late. He was an hour late for his OWN party! While he wasn’t there we finished an entire large bowl of guacamole I made…and laughed! I kept texting him but he wasn’t getting the clue that it was VITAL that he came home….He finally did and I didn’t get any photos of the initial surprise. but he was surprised!!! We all hid through out the house, and he about fell over when he walked int he door! He was so sweet and brought me a flower, and was holding it when he came in the door! Little did he know it was all about him!!

Ben wanted to sit in the broken chair and loouungee as he did improv with the Mama.

Ben and the Mama doing improv!

Happy Birthday Sweetie!

I took him to a great Indian Restaurant where they were so sweet and even brought him a cup of mango ice cream with a candle!

My mom pointed out the other day, that all our photos of us are posed like this.

For example:

Ben’s graduation dinner.

Oh and there is one up above from the surprise party…

At Olive Garden for Kjarsti’s birthday dinner!

At the same Indian Restaurant we went to for his birthday, only a week later! hehe

FYI, this is the “baby poop shirt”, and was title was formally changed to “The Curry shirt” that night at the Indian Restaurant.

ps. I did ok on the photos. Not great. Just ok. They are a funny size, but I don’t know how to get them to “normal”…so just deal with it!

I have had such an amazing weekend!

I was invited to join a women’s circle and this weekend was our first “gathering”. It was such a beautiful, spiritual experience to be enlightened and liberated by other women. All going through different things, all moving into a new stage in life. I am really starting to understand that everyday almost is like a new “stage” in life.

We created vision boards this month and I had some great ah-ha’s! I have always wanted to create a vision board but just never have. As I started looking through magazines, pictures just started coming to me. I didn’t premeditate my vision board, didn’t even think about what my wishes and desires were. The pictures and words just started coming, and they basically formed themselves on the paper. It is such a beautiful collage and it has such great meaning to me. It is a beautiful representation of my inner soul and beauty.

I am grateful for the women in my life.

today was the last day of class!! WOO HOO!!! I have one more final but it’s in a week! dumb. i know. I am completely done but that ONE.

So tonight I said to my mom, “now what do I do?” She responded with “YOU COULD BLOG!” haha… we’ll see how it goes!

Today as I was getting up to leave the computer lab to turn in my last paper for English (probably ever!)… I had a run in, or a trap in with a desk and a chair. Let me explain. The desks in this particular computer lab at the university I attend are very narrow! Try to picture in your mind what I am going to tell you. The desk is as wide as a computer monitor, and then there is a lonnggg desk that comes off of that. So two long desks that create a very narrow passage way for a chair. get it? You have to pull the chair all the way out, approx. 3 feet, sit down, then pull/roll yourself in and up to the monitor.

As I was attempting to leave, I pushed the chair back, and I guess it went at an angle and the chair got tangled with the leg of the desk and obviously wouldn’t fit because the space isn’t wide enough for a chair to go through length wise. While all of this is going on, my knee gets caught on the other side between the chair and other desk. The chair is stuck because it is completely wedged between my knee and the other desk, and to add to the equation, my backpack is right there at my foot of the knee that is caught. So I topple over! I can’t get the chair free for obviously reasons.

I manage to pull the chair back in, meanwhile, I am between the monitor and the chair, in the 3 foot space, trying to push the chair all the way against my body so I can untangle it and push it out so I can therefore walk out and push the chair back in. Despite all this, I did make it free and I am sure it only lasted a mere 2 minutes, but it felt like I was wedged for over 5 minutes!

Great last day of school!

My mom calls these “Julia moments” and mentioned to me in the same conversation as the one I spoke of early, that this happens to me a lot! And it is true! I always have these instances happen to me, or I meet weird people,

like this one

or this one is a great story!

or a “Julia Moment” as my mom calls them…

I’ve been told I should write a book. Everywhere I go…they are attracted to me! Why?

Enjoy!

btw: I am going to a MAC training tomorrow! yay!

i have always been in love with make-up! I am partial to one. particular. line.

it’s always kinda been my thang! I recently had a dry spell where I didn’t buy make-up for about 6 months, for reasons like: I have plenty! lack of money, lack of time to spend browsing at the make up counter. And because I am a licensed cosmetologist, I get 30% when I sign up for a MACPro card. I had found this out during my dry spell, and obviously signed up!

I recently have bought a lot of new make-up! At least 4 shadows, 2 blushes, 2 brushes, a mascara, lip gloss and paint pots.

I thought I would entertain you with numbers.

Here is the running list of what I currently own.

Eye Shadow: 41

Blush: 7

Paint Pot: 5

Mascara: 7

Eye Liner: 4

Brushes: 9

(if you’re interested in the names of these items, please ask! I will gladly share!)

I was recently in Portland with “my girls”, one who I went to cosmetology school with, and the other who I went to high school and works for MAC. It is kinda our thing to all stand in front of the mirror for hours in the morning getting ready. Playing, experimenting, laughing, singing…. Katie’s husband, Paul, and my boyfriend, Ben were about to pull their hair out! Hey-it was a girls trip! This is what we do, and GET to do because we never do it when we are in our regular lives!

Thought I’d share one of my true sole mates…MAC!

interesting thoughts from my cute mind…

let me just DEFEND myself! I haven’t watched tv (mom) in weeks! And I don’t think a little 15 minute mommy time at 10:30pm counts! Taking naps? I haven’t taken a nap in weeks! Except when I was sick! And I don’t think no one wants no sick blogging!

last nights dream:

I was at this national park water park, where the rocks were water slides, I was there with my girlfriend Shai who is one of my soul mates! And we decided to take a fairy to another “section” of the park, we get there and it is a very shallow river about 7′ wide. Beautiful rocks are glistening as the water flows over them. There are a lot of people there playing in the water. Shai and I were sitting on a big rock on the side, and I look up and notice that little rock shards are breaking off the mountain and fluttering like butterflies to the other mountain, that the river was between. Interesting.

These rock shards were not dangerous, but beautiful in metallic color, and really like butterflies. I look around me, and no on else is noticing. I poke Shai and direct her attention to the beauty above our heads. She sees it too!

I awoke soon after the dream to the sun beaming into my room, and the first thing I saw was beautiful Mtn Timp out my window. The sun shining and glistening against the little tiny snow flakes. My dream was as real as the mountain outside my window. This will be my reality one day!

ALSO…

I just had a Charlotte’s Web experience! I was sitting here at the computer and a spider came down on a string of web right by me. I freaked because I saw it out of the corner of my eye. I wasn’t afraid of the spider, but I did sit here for a minute going “what do I do? Do I get up, what if it isn’t here, I need to get rid of it, what do I do?” I finally got up and got some TP and flushed it…what does this mean about my life??

This is what it means:

From Animal Speaks:
“Spider teaches you to maintain a balance - between past and future, physical and spiritual, male and female. Spider teaches you that everything you now do is weaving what you will encounter in the future. It is associated with magic, creative power, and women.”

Interesting…